I won’t let you go

setiap denger lagu ini, selalu teringat banyak hal, terutama teringat orang-orang baik who accross my life. teringat mereka yang selalu ada ada saat aku jatuh, teringat tangan mana saja yang pernah setia menolong aku, pundak siapa saja yang pernah ada untuk aku bersandar, peluk mana saja yang pernah membungkam kesedihanku dengan erat, tawa milik siapa saja yang pernah mengalahkan apapun dukaku.

mereka keluarga, sahabat dan orang-orang terkasih kecintaannya Tuhan.
bahkan untuk membalas kebaikan mereka, aku gak akan mampu. aku cuma ingin kalian janji pada diri kalian, seperti saat kalian menyuruh aku berjanji pada diri sendiri saat itu; seberat apapun beban yang kalian pikul hingga ingin menyerah, tetaplah bertahan!!

aku menyayangi kalian, selalu

wish me luck

it’s been long time i haven’t attend a job interview, but “one call” come to me this morning ask me to come to their office for an interview.

guess what, i’m rather nervous than happy, well .. happy of course since this is one of my chance of take a leap to – i hope – a better thing.

not much to say now .. just wish me luck!🙂

out of the blue

i was having a bizzare dream last night, it’s you .. out of the blue you were come to my dream, the scene was too blur to remember but i remember sitting on the beach watching you wrote my name on the sand, you were smile then come to me and said “it’s you, i finally meet you”

*sigh* .. i know you’ve been obviously happily moved on, and i guess i do too .. but still i feel something wrong, somthing that never been revealed between us, i don’t want you to keep that grudge .. i know it was my mistake, or our mistake -who knows- .. and i know dozen of apologies is not enough, but i have tried, believe me i have tried.

you, all of this time, have you ever forgive me? forgive us? forgive those past?